| | Hey, wow it has been so f-ing long since last I updated. Well, so far during the school year I have managed to make it seem like I liked a guy in the band who won’t leave me alone. Also, a guy that I really seem to like who is in the band is probably the most interesting person, who I would love to get to know better. But, omg I just can’t seem to make words come out when ever he is near. Then there is this other guy whom I will admit that I liked because he was a buff football player, which means nothing. And well, I just recently found out that after all that flirting he did with me, all he wants is one thing. Yeah and he always cheats on his gf's from what I have heard. Also, he has been around the block a few times if you know what I mean. And I most definitely won’t hook up with him, because he will only be expecting one thing, which was also evident on the psychology quiz someone gave him to do during English class. The sign he picked out to be his favorite meant he was frustrated in that department. Then he told me something like, "you know what makes me frustrated. Being single." yeah so then he flirts with the other girls in class when I am not there to keep him busy. But I gave him a hug in class the other day. I wish that I could talk to the band guy I like though. There’s more to say but later | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
| Hey everybody, it’s been so long since my last entry. And I'm sorry. The probably is between color guard, homework, and school, I have no other life. And yeah I barely had any free time this weekend. Sucks sucks sucks, o yeah and I forgot all the college shit too. And not to mention I’m signed up for the SAT October eight. Good thing I quite my job or I would be swimming in stress, as if I weren’t all ready. But yeah, besides that big mess. I went to bulldogs and hotdogs last night. It was great. Except for the fact that we did our first performance ever for the event, and the football team all watched. Witch sucked since I know over half of the seniors on it. Yeah, then I went over to the baseball dunking booth right, and Kyle was in it. So I decided that I was going to try and knock him in. SO I get up there, throw the first ball, and bang. It was right on the target. lol. then in amazement, I grab the second baseball. prep, then through, and bam, it hit the same exact spot, and by the way I was a good distance off, unlike the other people who went up there to throw. then the third time, all eyes were on me. so I stepped forward, through the ball, and damn I missed by like two inches. haha o well. I got him in twice, and after those throws, coach Alvarez was pointing at me and saying something funny to Kyle but I didn’t hear what it was. then some girls from volley ball went up there, and I saw one miss my like five feet each time, and only one other girl (that I saw) hit him in, and she didn’t even hit the circle part. yeah I felt special. lol. yeah then I ran into Kyle a few minutes later, and got congratulated. haha, and its funny, cause I cant give good high fives, and trying to give Kyle one was hilarious. so yeah. that was the highlight of my night. wish I could have gone to Billie’s party though. bye bye. And don’t expect any updates for another month or so. | comments: Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, well guard camp isnt as bad as it has been in previouse years. and it is not because i prefer dance to flag, that wont happen, but i think it is becuase i dont have to put up with the continues drop spinning in which i have been retaught and retaught at least thirty times. So, since i havent really learned much in dance, everything is new and different, and it isnt bad going to a camp that has a point, unline learning drop spins again. so far Sara the new director, thirtieth, has been good. she knows when to be strict and when to not be. I guess it is nice though, cause we like the same kind of music and we dont always have to listen to that crap everyone else likes. haaha. well yeah, but i am still very upset about my senior year and how i wont be able to pick up a flag or gun. ): but i guess my dancing is pretty good right now, my legs hurt like hell. so yeah. welll night | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | hey everyone. It's back to school tomorrow for me. Colorguard camp. And what sucks ass is I don't have many people there who are friends of mine. So We def need to all still eat lunch together if it is possible, but i doubt it because colorguard was during a lunch, and now that you guys droped the class, who knows what lunch you might end up getting. IT will be a sad senior year beginning i think. For the reason we no longer will have anything to do with excitment in the band show without flag and gun, and that the stress of applying for college will eat away all my time. So yeah, but once all that is over with, maybe the Varsity Baseball Season will ease the rest of the year. bye bye | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | I keep battiling trying to figure out if there is fate, or just coincidence. Personally, coincidence is depresing, for the fact that your life would seam pointless if there was nothing that you were sent to earth to accomplish or achieve. | comments: Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, (do not read if you havent finished harry potter yet) i really dont know what to type, except for the fact that i am very strangely excited about next year. we will be at the top, it will be the last time i have to put up with philip, i will manage varsity baseball, find out what school i will be attending, and get to take three math classes. i am eager to learn more about statistics. but unfortunatly i wont be there to take my senior picture, cause i will be out of town. so there goes my yearbook photo. great start to the year. (sarcasm). but anyways... reading harry potter gets me more interested in learning things. weird huh? but yeah i read the book and it ended incredible strangely, i had all my hopes that snape was really a good guy. but yeah, i guess i can see where JKR is going with it. now harry has to act pretty much all alone, without the help of the head master, showing his maturity. im a nerd, i know. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, wow it is damn ass early or late, however you look at it, but i have to be waking up in like four hours, so maybe i should retire soon. but seriusly, some guy, who was farily cute, came up to the counter today at cabanna. he ordered and stuff... then he came back once he got his food, and we wernt so busy and asked for a number to get in contact with us later. well thats what i thought anyways, but really he wanted my number, so after about a minute of searching for cabannas number, i asked him again. and he said he wanted my number so we could do something later. omg i asked him how old he was, and he said twenty four. wow. i dont know what is so apealing about the cabanna uniform, but man i have been asked out so many times wearing it. its ass ugly too. but then i wrote my cell down, and told him that i was seventeen, he knew i was going to be a senior, but then he said, when do you turn eighteen, so i said febuary. its just a little strange. twenty four years old, i wont do anything with him if he calls, but i didnt want to lie, or make him go home empty handed. lol bye guys and good night. | comments: Leave a comment  |
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| | I dont know how much longer I can wait, it is making me feel sick to my stomach. I feel so alone, and trapped with nothing to comfort me anymore. | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| “Fate’s Lies” I have spilt my heart out searching for you, On an endless road that will never be through.
So sure that I found something to last forever, But love’s dark side had grown very clever.
You have stolen my smile and every laugh, At an unaffordable ransom and no other path.
Whether the fault lies with you or some other means, Nothing will be changed in our previous scenes.
Love’s value is gone and lost to your thought, Forever clutched behind what I have sought.
Now here I stand shaken by your vastly eyes, Wishing I could have foreseen all of fate’s lies.
For every meeting we had seamed so planned, But was just as worthless as a grain of sand.
My love for you is choreographed into an unending dance, So when despair leaves me I will rediscover my chance. By: Jamie Castor | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, well i went deep sea fishing. got really ass sick. and then the next day i caught a shark, it wasnt very big, but atleast i caught something. we also went swimming with out life jakets, and in the middle of the gulf of mexico. im glad there were no sharks there, cause getting back into the boat took me forever. and the day before there was a pod of about four spotted dalphines that were swimming in front of the boat, so me and angela went around to the front and hung are leggs over the edge and almost got to touch them. it was awsome. then we went to a late night beach party. those are fun. all you need to do to get one started is to get like two trucks of people you know, have them all tune to the same channel, and blast loud music all down the beach to get cars to follow you. then look for the best spot next to any other drinkers, and pull next to them. we ended up having five different car loads of people pull up and we were all listening to music. I didnt drink anything cause police patrol the beach, and that would be the worst thing, cause my parents would never trust me again if we were caught. but yeah, im horribly suprised by how many young smokers there are. it is sickining. there was this fifteen year old girl there, who was wasted and smoking. seriusly can we say trailer park if she doesnt manage to straighten herself out. geez. well anyways i am proud for not doing anything like that. bye bye | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | I sent an email to his team, not really knowing why, and doubting that anything will come of it, but not wanting to have something to regret, and wanting to know I gave it a try. | comments: Leave a comment  |
| | well, so much for having a party any time soon. I am working all weekend, and I will be out of town next week from thursday to sunday. Maybe sometime after though, and I guess it would be sad to have a party when brianna is not in town. haha, no more unsuspecting pants victims. so anyway, im going deep sea fishing with Angela, so thats why i wont be hear next weekend, i think it will be fun, i have never done it before. bye | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys and girls, just got home today, and I cant wait to stay. haha. it will be nice, I get home sick, and i have been just so excited to finaly come back. brianna, are you out of town??? i miss all my buddies. bye | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
| | I love Texas Baseball. and for all those who didnt watch any, i feel sry for you. lol jk. I am really excited about going home!!!! you have no idea, cause i cant wait to get my privacy and finaly write some more. and well, i guess work wont be so bad after all. but we all definatly need to get together and have a party or something at my place, a celebration, and a mid summer thing. I think I should invite the UT team, but i heard on saturday that they are having a party of their own, i could go too. haha I wish. no that would be tooooo crazy. and This vacation is the bomb, but kindof lonely without by brother. haha Dickey, poor guy. left fielder for florda. Well.... bye bye sexies. wait, o yeah, well after TExas WOn the College world Series, i got a picture with DReeeww stubbs and will crouch, and the picture with drew included his family too. His girlfriend was there, and she was taking a pic of the family, and then rudley asked me to move, then i got in there with a picture with drew. his family was really nice, it was just his mom and dad. they seamed very pleased to be in the picture too. lol. I guess they thought I was cute. Then, I got a picutre with Will, who was very cute. but none can beet the legendary Curtis Thigpen. never ever. And it was fun when we drove by the Texas bus after they played the night game against baylor, and just barley got passed them with a walk off home run, hit by chance wheeless, and when we drove by I screamed, "Dad, the texas bus, omg honk the horn." and he did like three times adn i rolled my window down, and gave them the horns. IT was awsome, and they pointed and gave it back. At the final game against florda, it was amazing how many local people were there cheering for Texas, and whenever the florda left fielder came out, the fans would tant him, I felt sry for him, and wished they would have stopped. then after the game we waited outside so we could regroup since we seperated, and the amazing sub marine arm througher for Florda came out and he was cute, and I wished to say hi, but I didnt want to do anything, stupid, wearing all ut stuff. but he was smiling, different from how Texas looked after they lost two to Cal State after the world series last year. I know I wrote alot, but hey, its been amazing, and exciting. And then, hopefully, in a week or so, i will be going to the gulf of mexico to cruise on a yaht owned by a friend adn deep sea fish. ITs gonna be fun. bye bye again. | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, well so far ive been to three ball games. got to watch JP HOwell pitch against the Rocket, then watched some minor league teams, and o yeah saw the world series UT and Baylor Game. Texas won, I hope they can continue through. bye guys. | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | hey guys, I will be gone for the next two weeks, but will try to get in touch with any one when can. By the way, we will be sitting at the college world series behind the outfield. They are general admission tickets, and all the games will be in high definition on ESPN so, you guys should all watch, and hope that Texas wins, and maybe you will se me. Doutfully, but maybe. I am excited, and you guys should send me email or something, so i dont feel subcluded on any new summmer news. hope to see all of you when I get back, and maybe then we can all do something. bye | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
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| | Shit, they lost against arkansas, in regionals. Its a double elimination too, and now, there is a chance they wont make it to super regionals, which means a definate no on the world series. Our entire vacation was planned around it, If they dont make it there is no point in us going, and I don't want to go any more. | comments: Leave a comment  |
| | "This calm river we have been floating on for so long, betrays us with its unexpected rapids ahead." | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment  |
| | okay our baseball banquit is comming up, i want to go with kc but i dont have a way to contact him or anything. Then, Texas lost against ok state. by six runs, only this time it wasnt because they had poor bats, they had the worst pitching i have ever heard of. omg every pitcher sucked so much. And the bats were great, they had twelve hits and no error. I just dont get how every time they have great pitching, their bats go cold, and every time their bats are hot, their pitching sucks. Wow they need to pull it together or i wont get to take a trip to the world series. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment  |
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